Will I be a good Mom?

I was up at 3am this morning peeing and just plain uncomfortable... Time is getting close so scary.  I've been quite anxious lately and my mind wanders a lot. 6 weeks until his due date and 3 weeks until I am considered full term!!! AHhh!!!

I have a due date of July 2nd 2012, and he better stay in until then and please be 6lbs lol!    I feel deep down that Baby Boy will be making his big debut on his due date.  I hear I will be ready long before then, pain wise and irritability but I want a July baby!  So all of this was racing through my mind this morning at ... I'm NOT ready...  He better stay in , wait on me ...the nursery is still under construction (pics to come) ... I haven't read all of my 'parenting books' yet, and the biggest anxiety provoking thought of all, 'will I even be a good mom?!' Before July gets here, I need to get it together!!! I have my check list handy and more stuff to check off than is already checked!!!